today i found out that a old professor from the university i attend[ed] lost his son to suicide. he was only 15 years old. i was immediately overwhelmed with sadness and struggled to fight back tears.
while i didn’t personally know the kid, it breaks my heart to learn of another person who has taken their own life because of reasons. it reminded me of why i studied psychology and why i’m studying human services in graduate school. i want to help people. i want to show people how beautiful this life can be (even with the really shitty times). i want people to know that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary state of being.
more than anything i want people and you to know that you matter. your story is important. you are loved by people. there is hope. people care about you and want to see the absolute best come to you.
if you honestly believe that you have no one in your life, i will be that person for you. i may have never met you but i can guarantee that i will 100% care about you and anything you ever have to tell me or do. i want to see all good things happen to you. i will help you in any and all capacities that i can. i am here for you and want to see you achieve great things.
there’s an excerpt from a letter stephen fry wrote to a girl who was suffering from depression and it’s been one of the greatest inspirators and motivators i’ve ever read:
I’ve found that it’s of some help to think of one’s moods and feelings about the world as being similar to weather:
Here are some obvious things about the weather:
You can’t change it by wishing it away.
If it’s dark and rainy it really is dark and rainy and you can’t alter it.
It might be dark and rainy for two weeks in a row.
It will be sunny one day.
It isn’t under one’s control as to when the sun comes out, but come out it will.
mentally, there are going to be shitty days. i can promise you that but i can also promise that they will go away too. you have amazing strength inside of you that allowed you to get this far in life. find it again and hold onto it once more. you’re so much stronger than you know.